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Day by day and squirrel

Tue Jul 24, 2012, 3:31 PM
After losing my mom, I've felt very strange (sad and empty strange) by every day, but I think it's normal. Everyday life goes slow and carefully and I spend a lot of time with my family and I cry when I feel so (that's means a lot of crying, mostly at nights). This will most likely take years, but I'm ready to go through it. Thanks for all who supported me and strength to all who have experienced the same or worse.

But I'm still doing something. Working keeps me somehow sane and my works includes art, house cleaning, paper works and sorting stuff. And at fall I can go back into office-works too.

An example of my doings lately: Here is a picture of me when I was varnishing a ceramic hawk, which I repainted in our storage. img.photobucket.com/albums/v29…
I had to use a gas mask because that varnish was heck of a poison.

And one question. Why squirrel licks the mountain ash's leafs? I saw this squirrel doing so and I've never seen it before: img.photobucket.com/albums/v29…

  • Mood: Gloomy
  • Drinking: Ice tea
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Tragondor-Silverwing Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012
I'm so very sorry about your situation. I've always enjoyed your jokes and your lovely art, and I'm glad your art and other works is stopping you from spiraling into a deep despair. I can only hope that you will be fine. Moving on is tough, I only know that much; but I'm sure you'll have the strength to carry on, dear.
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XWhiteXAngelX Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Get better soon! xxxxx <3
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megapirate675 Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Though u don't have to but I recommend u try Slender
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:iconisismasshiro:
IsisMasshiro Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2012
I've heard of it
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:iconmegapirate675:
megapirate675 Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
really? did u tried it before or someone just told you about it?
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Zedna7 Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2012  Student Digital Artist
I'm so sorry to hear that. You have my condolences :iconsootheplz:
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:iconisismasshiro:
IsisMasshiro Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2012
Thanks
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Kerchup Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2012
that's sad :((

I hope you feel better.
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IsisMasshiro Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2012
Just a little
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:iconnoneofurbussiness:
noneofurbussiness Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2012
I know the feeling, I just recently lost a best friend, so it can be very hard.

Also nice work with the hawk. And I have no Idea why that squirrel was doing that....perhaps that squirrel was odder than usual...as far as squirrels go anyways.
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MorbidCrowkiller Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2012
i'm sorry for you, i too have lost someone dear to me.
stay strong, Isis. hope you're ok.
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IsisMasshiro Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012
Stay strong you too and thank you
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SackHunter Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Ohh...I know that feeling.

After I lost my second grandfather, I didn't feel the same inside. I felt depressed and had trouble in school for some time.
Also, one of my favorite cats, Patches, died almost a week after that. I also saw her in a couple of my dreams.

Now that feeling's coming back again. I'll try to pray my best for you, Isis.
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IsisMasshiro Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2012
I'm sorry what happened. Living things tend to die too, sadly.

Same to you.
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poisonDragongirl13 Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2012  Student Artist
you know my dad died wan i was 4
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IsisMasshiro Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2012
Damn, that's sad.
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poisonDragongirl13 Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2012  Student Artist
but i delld with it :D

and im good
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Tsukiko-koe Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
It's been six years since I lost my father and I can admit it still gets to me in at times. I think the times when the reality of it hits the hardest is when sometimes at night I dream of something like waking up in the late morning and coming out to the kitchen to find him cooking breakfast like he used to. I would wake up crying because I knew from the start of the dream that it wasn't real. One of the hardest things to come to grips with was the fact that while my friends and extended family came to offer their support, they all moved on long before me or my mother and brother did and it angered me that the world dared keep spinning and that life for everyone else went on while I was feeling such loss and abandonment.
I don't know if this is what you felt since everyone grieves differently, but I want you to know that even though we have never met and I know nothing of you outside your art and journal entries, please know that I am thinking of you and hoping that little by little, the pain will give away to leave behind fond remembrance of your mother's life and how she shaped such a wonderful person as you.
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IsisMasshiro Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2012
Thank you and if we need to grief, let's grief like hell.
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stitchsmile Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012
I can't even imagine how it's to loss a family member and the pain you must feel :( I hope you all luck through life <3
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IsisMasshiro Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2012
And let's hope you will never need to feel that too soon.
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RamsestardoHaidi Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Elämä jatkuu päivä kerrallaan.. Voimia sulle!! :heart::iconarmstrongtighthugplz:

En oo koskaan nähny oravan käyttäytyvän noin.. o.O Oisko niissä jotain kirvoista erittynyttä mesikastetta, mitä murkutkin himoittee? :D
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IsisMasshiro Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012
Jeps, elämä menee nyt verkkaan ja kumman outo tunne ollut kokoajan, kuin olisin unessa josta en voi herätä.

Sitä minäkin epäilin ekana
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Artermus9 Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I know the feeling. -_-
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:iconisismasshiro:
IsisMasshiro Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012
It's sad
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Artermus9 Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Yeap... *sigh*
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LittlePuffy4ever Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I know how to lose a loved one. I lost my grandparents and my friend.
I hope you get over this loss. You can count on me if you want some support.:cling:
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IsisMasshiro Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2012
I' sorry what happened. But at least we all going to die, it's just different thing when we die.

Thank you.
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DragonEldarFire Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2012
my god, im so sorry to hear i hope all gets well
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:iconisismasshiro:
IsisMasshiro Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2012
Maybe they will. Thx
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DragonEldarFire Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2012
anytime
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Cassadar Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2012
hope you soon feel better *hugs*

and for the squirrel... maybe it's licking dew or water of the leafs?...
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:iconisismasshiro:
IsisMasshiro Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2012
Maybe...even it was a quite dry day
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GingerFoxy Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2012  Professional
I haven't commented before as I'm often afraid to say things on such delicate matters, but you've got my full support and sympathy. I find your decision to stay away from medication very admirable. That junk is just drugs in disguise in my opinion.
I have lost my father about ten years back as well as my grandfather more recently, but losing one's mother is surely pain of a whole different caliber.
Not sure how much you welcome advice, but I'd say just do more things that make you happy, though actually enjoying them might take effort, it seems worth doing to me.

And the hawk looks really neat! Makes me think of a hawk lamp I've got (it's a hollow ceramic statuette with a light bulb inside, made back in the USSR). I like it, but don't use it as the wires look unsafe

As for the squirrel, aside from the leaves tasting good (or having a texture that's just plain fun to lick), I can't think of a reason! Though sometimes animals just seem to magically find plants containing the vitamins they need. But if I was a squirrel, I'd do all sorts of strange things just to keep observant people wonder.
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IsisMasshiro Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2012
Thank you and don't worry, I'll not bite.
Yes, the grim comfort is that we all will die too sooner or later and life itself is just a small blink.

That's awesome lamp and it's good that you look after the safety.

Maybe it was licking those leaves just because it tasted funny, indeed? Squirrels do a lot of weird stuff.
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MidnightsRose Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012  Student General Artist
After loosing my Dad only a few weeks ago, I understand how you are feeling. I wish I could say something magical that would make you feel better, and make all the pain and sadness go away, but I can't. And that's what sucks about grieving. It's natural, and a process that takes time. The only thing I can say is remember that you have people around you that support you and care for you no matter what and that they understand what you are going through. Cry when you need to cry and laugh when you feel you can laugh. And never let anyone tell you that "it's been x amount of time, you should be over this by now". The death of someone who has meant so much to you during your life is going to be hard to cope with, and the pain will probably never fully go away. But over time it will get easier and life will begin to move on. Keep her in your heart, but don't let your grief overwhelm you fully. Things will get easier over time, I promise. And always remember that no matter what you will always have support from the ones you love. Stay strong.

~A fellow mourner
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IsisMasshiro Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2012
I'm so sorry about your father, especially when I know the feeling.
And cry as much as you need too, it is important indeed and maybe we will be somehow sad rest of our lifes, but that is way to live too.

Let's try to be strong, because there is no options.
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MidnightsRose Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2012  Student General Artist
*hug* You will be in my thoughts. Stay strong.
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Sologirl-377 Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012
I have been one of your quiet watchers but I must say: my greatest apologizes for your loss. I know what it's like to lose loved ones. There's always going to be times when you grieve and miss them, but the pain will eventually ease up, especially with time. c: It's not an easy path to heal the pain, but it's not impossible either.

On a brighter note, glad to see you and your artwork around! I have missed it considerably, especially your great humor.
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IsisMasshiro Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012
Thank you very much and I'm sorry too what you had go through as well.

Awww, that was sweet.
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Sologirl-377 Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012
You're very welcome. And thank you kindly! I appreciate it!

It's true--your comics are one of the reasons I got interested in Left for Dead series, and now, I got it the other day and can't stop playing.

And I love your dragons and dinosaurs, dsfnsfks, so awesome.


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LapinNoita Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Koitahan pärjäillä. : O

Itelläki on vähän mieli maassa ku sekä ukki että pappa on menny huonompaan suuntaan onnettomuuksien ja sairausten takia...
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IsisMasshiro Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012
Koitan jotenkin.

Osanottoni, tuo on kyllä kamalaa elämää ja sain jonkin aikaa kokea senkin kun äitini sairastui.
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Neminder Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012
Hienoa kuulla sinusta taas~:heart:
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IsisMasshiro Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012
Joo, en oo kuollu
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:iconneminder:
Neminder Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2012
Hyvä homma~ :heart: :hug:
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ScorpionPixels Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Otan osaa :( Hankala sanoo muuta ku ittelleni ei oo tapahtunu mtn tollasta

Ehkäpä sil oraval ei ollu vaa kaikki kunnossa :/ Kerran meidän pihal oli orava joka juoksi ympyrää. Käytiin kattoo lähempää ja sit se puri äitii peukkuu. Välil ne kurret vaa pimahtaa.
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IsisMasshiro Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2012
Ja toivotaan ettei kanssa tulekaan sulle vastaan kovin äkkiä.

Hui, se taisi tosiaan olla sairas orava, ei se kuitenkaan rabiesta ollu, muutoin äitini olisi ollut pulassa.
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ScorpionPixels Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Juu.

Rabies ois ollu aika paha
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Zielle Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I know it's easier said than done, but don't mourn her "too much". It will be hard for her to pass over. In Russia it's said that if you cry too often you "drown" the departed in tears.
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